Wow. I have been neglecting this blog.
So I thought it would be better to just write and be honest than to let another Sunday slip without a single word typed. Another month has gone by, and what creative progress do I have to show for it? Perhaps a little more appreciation for the creative process.
Writing is more difficult than I remembered. Perhaps writing isn’t the difficult part… it’s having an idea worth writing about.
I’ve been a strange mixture of busy and slow this past month. Busy making my home studio livable and workable, but slow to produce enough products (but who determines what is enough, anyway?); busy getting in touch with some old friends, but slow in keeping up with others; busy getting myself into a new routine, but slow in any of that new routine sticking. Busy thinking up ideas for what this blog should be, but slow to consider any of them useful.
You see, I’ve been having something of a crisis of creativity.
For the past three years (seven years, if you include my undergrad), I have experienced creativity through writing. As I contemplated continuing this blog after May’s graduation (and yes, there was a time where I thought of moving on to some other pasture), I wondered if I could sustain my writing as an outlet for creativity when I was taking on a very physically creative unpaid day job. I thought it would be a great idea. Stretch the ol’ writing muscles, after all. I was misguided.
As you can see from my dearth of writing here, creative writing has been a more difficult discipline than I had anticipated. Not because I don’t enjoy writing, but because almost every idea I have taped around the edges of my computer screen seem anemic.
I thought it would fall into my comfort zone, writing. Seven years, people. But readers are not giving me writing prompts as my professors would; I am not being asked to summarize my understanding of Trinity or my belief in what the church should be. Nah, I’m just shooting the breeze with you, telling you what’s on my mind. And that’s a little different than structured (albeit creative) essay writing.
That’s where I am. A little unsure. But what’s new there?
For those of you who read… thanks. It is good to sit at this computer screen on a rainy Sunday evening and think of you. I’ll be busy this week, working hard and enjoying the work of my hands. But I’ll be thinking of a way to be creative here, too.
Let’s not let another month go by without a word, shall we?